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whenever i masturbate, instead of focusing on the fap material, there would always be a part of my brain thinking about some of the most vile shit imaginable (non-fetish, like people getting murdered or just deaths in general) as if it's trying to stop me from wasting my seed. but i'd usually just cum while both the sexy imagery and the vile thoughts in my head fighting each other does this happen to you?
>does this happen to you? no
Yes, but for me it’s chronic (I can’t stop thinking or even concentrate for a couple of years now). I also noticed that if I even try to jerk off to normal porn, I'm pedodaydreaming in my head.
no i just get hypnotised and immersed in happiness. sometimes I think of these gore / murder things randomly in public or with some family members (what if?) even doe i would never do anything like that.