>>2307 (OP)
ryekrispie is so fucking attractive i cant take it anymore literally every time my mind is absent it wanders to scenarios of me having sex with her, ill imagine myself fucking rye until i fall asleep and ive even improved my sleep schedule so when i dream these scenarios i'll remember it, its gotten to the point where on occasion i forget she isn't actually real, like i'll be making food and think about what she would like to eat before i snap back to reality and my heart drops knowing i will never be able to spend the rest of my life with her, let alone spend any time with her at all beyond the screen and my imagination. Why even fucking live at this point? no woman could ever compare to her, no person at all could ever compare to her in any aspect because she will never be her, i dont even fucking know anymore. I've been suicidal for a long time and as silly as it sounds i really do think this is a driving factor behind it, even just talking to any of them would fix half my problems and give me the motivation to fix the rest but it just eats away at me every fucking second that it isnt possible, at least if i was some retarded troon i could delude myself into thinking of myself as her or some schizo actually being able to really see and hear and feel her but nope, have fun with another wet dream and the following disappointment retard! its not even just the "omgsisa!" sexual shit either, i really do just want to be with her but whatever man, i dont even know. fuck this shit